Saakshi`s thoughts and my love for her still haunted me. I couldn’t forget her smell, her talks or her sexy laughter. I tried to console and justify her actions. Probably she had her constrains. But a nagging voice inside me, always prompted me and pestered me with a question “But why didn’t she explain things to me? Was I a stranger to her? I was not able to answer any of my doubts. I was shattered emotionally. I still wondered why I am not annoyed with Saakshi!
Sunanda understood my indifference and restlessness. Not that she knew the reason. She just knew that she was not my `cup of tea” to be precise. As a good natured woman and a wife, she kept to herself mostly. She tended to all my needs. I was being odious and I knew that too. But I was helpless.
Our conjugal nearness were abrupt and matter of fact. Without another word Sunanda obliged always. Two bodies mated, because that was what was expected out of any marriage.
My parents started sounding their discern over my indifference as a husband. They didn’t know the intensity of love I had once experienced. My mother was aware of my failed love affair .So she kept quiet and at times spoke to me with her eyes. I knew I was doing injustice to Sunanda. But I couldn’t help it .No one understood my plight.
Four years rolled by with no great happenings….Then one day I got a call from Vivek, my college mate. He was getting married in Bengaluru and wanted all our batch mates to meet there…a get together!! I felt excited. Will Saakshi come? I didn’t have to think for long .Vivek answered my reverie. “Ankith, I have invited Saakshi too. You know she is my face book friend. “I knew Vivek was waiting for an answer .But I decided to keep quiet.
It was still dawn when I stepped out of the cab and walked towards the entry gate of the Delhi airport. The early morning February air was pleasantly cold.
I was travelling to Bengaluru to attend a college friend`s wedding. It had been four years since we graduated from the same college. This wedding was also going to be the reunion of our batch mates. But what I didn’t know was that the reunion would begin much ahead of time. Right in the queue in front of the airline counter.
I was almost sure it was she. Same height.Same long hair! Same complexion! Curiosity had my eyes glued to her. And then about 60- odd seconds later, when she turned she proved me right. My ex-girlfriend stood two places ahead of me in that queue. We had never met after the college farewell.
For a moment time stood still. Suddenly Saakshi smiled and started walking towards me with an expression that said` `I am sorry, my darling. I can`t live without you.” Or was I imagining?
I waited with mixed feelings. `God! Saakshi was truly walking towards me!!I was transfixed.
It was then that my cell phone rang. It was my wife Sunanda. “Ankith, I had wanted to tell you something yesterday. But you seemed very disturbed. Still I want you to be the first one to know it .Hence my call now. “she paused for a moment and said` `Ankith, I am pregnant!!” a pause again then “take care and enjoy with your friends.” Then slowly the line went dead. So did my excitement at seeing Saakshi.
My all containing sweet and adorable wife was carrying my seed in her womb and I am going to be a father now! What more can I ask for.? And here I am lusting for a woman from my past…Impossible.
I closed my eyes and started walking away from Saakshi and my awaiting excitement at Bengaluru….My mind swelled up with a strange and beautiful emotion and that feeling had Sunanda`s face ..Yes love spoke to me then. True love from my true life partner and wife….
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